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[Aug. 4th, 2009|11:00 am] |
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| | I'll Fight- Wilco | ] |
There are many reasons why I have not posted something here.
For one, I really haven't been having a good time lately. I want journal post to be about positive things and I don't have that often enough nowadays. Also, a Facebook apps are really addicting.
For those that want to know, I lost my job in December, and got kicked out of Sac State for my pour grades this summer. My unemployment checks are not enough to support me and Jess. I still live with my Uncle, and I can't find a job that pays enough. My credit cards have been so maxed out that I will never own a house or get a good car loan. My Grandma is getting so sick that she is in the hospital at least 5 time a week. Oh, and my jaw is hurting so much that I can't open all the way or close it. Did I mention that I poked myself in the eye so hard that it cost me 200 dollars to fix it?
Every cloud does have a silver lining or some crap right?
First, I been able to "work" on my improv skills, and I am now apart of Comedy Sportz Sacramento.
Here is a link to the site: http://www.comedysportzsacramento.com
It is not a paying gig.
I wish I could say I been working on sketches but I haven't. Every time I write something down, it just sounds like bad emo poetry. *Ahem*
Second would be my Serenity role playing game that I run. People seem to like it. We do it ever Tuesday, and I kinda don't want to this Tuesday. I feel like I am running out of ideas.
Third, I have a comic book segment on youtube called "Kevin and Richard's Comic Book Throwdown". Here is a link to my youtube homepage: http://www.youtube.com/user/shoelesskb
So, that's all I have. Drop me a line or check out my stuff. I also have Deviant Art account now, but it is mostly a joke. |
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| October Blues |
[Oct. 6th, 2008|11:49 pm] |
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| | Joe Biden | ] |
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| | North Platte - Nebraska | ] |
I might of saw a guy steal a car today. On my way to work some guy was bobbing around this brand new silver Toyoda. He was fiddling with the car handle and looking around. He didn’t even seem to care that I walked two car spaces by him. It was also 4pm in the afternoon, and who would be dumb enough to steal a car in daylight. So, instead of being heroic, and only doubting himself, I walk by and not give it a third look. I did look back to check once. I thought if I seek out a security guard or someone of authority to check to see if he needed “help” you know. Then I kept coming up with reasons not to check or help.
They have cameras everywhere, I thought. Someone will do something. It isn’t my car. It’s the mall job to take care of things. I would just be mixed up in something that isn’t my problem. It could be his car…
All these reason swarmed around me. So much that I made up a reason to go back to my car to get something I didn’t need. The car was gone and so was the guy.
I thought about the security at the mall after that.
I now think that they are not there to keep me safe. They are only there to protect the “mall’s” interest. They don’t care about the costumers or even the workers there, they only want to protect and sever the mall. They hold an inanimate building over real people. Kind of makes me sick.
My brain hurts both physical and mentally. I been having tons of headaches lately and just tried in general. I barrow a WWE wrestling game from a co-worker. It is fun to just beat and pummel someone. No strategy or thinking. Straight out punch and grab fun.
I think Frosted Flakes are kind of ok. Not great. I don’t trust tigers.
With the way the economy is right now, I am worried about my job. All stores around the country are having bad times. Like 10% company wide. That means bankrupt and forecloses on stores, company wide. Good thing I got all that college education. Yip, no way I can lose now.
This is great. I love how the reporter does his own voice-over for the Japanese guy:
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| Top Ten Signs That You Need A Sign In Your Life |
[Sep. 2nd, 2008|12:45 am] |
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| | guess? | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Let's do it" - Joan Jett and Paul Westerberg | ] |
Man, I do need to sleep more. Work was interesting. I think more time I spend there, the more I get snippy with people. I used to just mutter under my breath it jackasses. Now, especially if they don’t speak English, I just say what I am thinking, like, smiling and saying “please don’t touch me“. My favorite, “Oh look your money is all folded and wet….ew…”. I know I am on my last legs with this job. I know how I said this last year, but I really hope that this year will be my last Christmas. We really need the money since Jess has no job and now I am paying for things.
I been so confused with “things” right now. I tried talking about it, drinking it away, and masturbating to them. Still nothing. No clear path. I used to be insightful and knowledgeable.
No seriously I was. But then this “path” was put in front of me.
Did you know that Madison wasn’t a girls name until the movie Splash came out? Fun stuff.
Also in 1987 over 7 million children in the US disappeared in the course of one day. You seen, a new law was put into effect that forced parents to put a child’s social security numbers on the tax forms. So from the year 1986 to 1987 the IRS reported 7 million children disappearing from their records.
Freakonomics is a good book. I recommend it.
I think a big portion of my problems stem from the notion that my feelings do not count to the great scheme of things. I just one guy in a world of billions of people.
I have no desire for most things. I eat everything (expect ranch). God knows I drink anything. I neglected a lot of feelings and impulses over the years that I want to regret them. But it was those choices that made me what I am today.
It is hard for me to find the good times and the bad times to speak up. Like a friend being bullied. I speak up. I feel a certain way. I repress. I think repressing has gotten me into a lot of trouble, but I would also credit it towards my ability in improv. You know it is the quite ones to watch out for. It feels now worse then a broke heart but a broken soul. I want to betray everything I understand and quantify the impact. I want to cry and measure my tears acidity. I want to count every breath I take and gauge the Co2 content. I want to see a forest burned down to count the bodies inside. I want to believe in my feeling because they are tangible.
I need to stop reading 19th century poets. Makes me feel weird. |
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| I believe in Victor |
[Aug. 15th, 2008|05:52 pm] |
I like Chuck Palahniuk's works. Not becuase of Fight Club, which is not his best book, but becuase he titers on the edge of realism and down right crude crazyiness. Much like my favorite book of his, Choke.
I did not know, till today, that there is a movie based on this book, and it comes out Sept. 26 in limited areas. Apparently it was played at Sundance and I still didn't know about it. Lame.
For those that don't know the story here is the IMDb for it. "A sex-addicted con-man pays for his mother's hospital bills by playing on the sympathies of those who rescue him from choking to death."
And here is the trailer:
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| Once On A Stormy Sea |
[Aug. 5th, 2008|12:35 pm] |
The first days are the toughest. I tried to quite caffeine and coffee before, but it never works out. Also, since I been "drinking" every night for almost two weeks, and almost every night at Disneyland, I wanted to take a break from it all and try to be healthier with my choice. So today it day four I think. I mostly drink soda, one a day, because my caffeine withdraws are killer. I'm a bit more irritable lately and really confused. I been having a hard time focusing, and well, stuff. I burned my thumb and index finger while cooking. Now, I am going to be late for work because i wanted to just post this. Well, not this. More about how I really can't wait for fall to come around. I hate the summer and heat. I say this a lot and I know it is repetitive, but I can't wait for the cool rain and cloudy skies. The warm jackets and smoky fireplaces heating houses. It feels like it doesn't rain as much anymore. I also had my first really idea for a story in a long time. Not too original but at least it was something. I can't tell if I'm just really depressed and have been for a while or if I am going threw some kind of "25 year old loser" phase. I really hate working. I used to be so not attached to things. I remember getting to ARC early in the morning and reading a book i got from the library. Sitting on the red brick wall with the cool breeze and fall leafs swinging by me. Anyway, like I always say, i need to sit and write more or something. |
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| The Blood Saoked Moon |
[Jul. 13th, 2008|12:59 am] |
While the fires near by have hurt my lungs like the dickens, the outside world has never look so good. Usually the summers here are filled with a blazing sun and brightness everywhere. Due to the smog and smoke the sun is blocked, and there is a light "fog" until early afternoon. Also te run rise and sets have looked red and the moon has a nice shade of pink to it. Very nice. Still like 112 degrees outside, but that's ok.
in the "weird things i seen so far" category: the latest episode of my favorite show, "Code Geass" think it was show ten. One of the female characters masturbates to pictures of one of the other female character. It was all dark and her head if bopping up and down and there is a sound of fabric rubbing. It was crazy. Never seen something like that before. |
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| Starting July 2nd. (in japan) |
[Jun. 30th, 2008|04:14 pm] |
Can't wait for Slayers to start up again. Still need to finish Slayers Next and Try.
Happy Three year to me and Jess on the 25th in June. We went to Zinfandel bar and grill in Folsom. Very nice place. |
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| Almost Time |
[May. 5th, 2008|02:35 pm] |
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| | energetic | ] |
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| | Genshiken noise | ] |
I can't believe that Fanime is almost here again. So much is happening so fast that it is really fun. Lucky Star comes out tomorrow. Iron Man pulled in 100 million over the weekend. (104 million if you include Thursday). I guess I'm next semester Improv Club Treasurer. I am happy about it and kinda want to help make the club more of a real club. Right now it is some place were a bunch of people just hang out one night of the week. Some ideas I've had are getting a Digital Camcorder for the club and maybe even getting a web site for our videos. Also maybe try to do benefit shows so that the club has more of a meaning. I guess I see what everyone else thinks before getting things going.
Iron Man was great by the way. Go see it and stay till the end of the credits.I want to go see it again. Maybe Thursday or Tuesday night.
Also, the best thing about the upcoming Fanime is that I been able to save a little bit of money for it. Not a lot, but enough to enjoy myself. Mostly because of tax brakes and the fact I have been cutting down on my spending. I hope Jess can give me some money for the laptop so I have an extra money this summer *wink wink*.
Speaking of Jess, I think my plan for our three year anniversary is almost complete. |
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| ADV are Dicks |
[Apr. 15th, 2008|08:54 pm] |
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| | Yummys | ] |
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| | "Puzzle"-round table and nino | ] |
So, I like the anime Neon Genesis Evangelion. Look it up if you don't know it. Anyways, sine anime is becoming more and more popular a live action movie has been on the table for Eva since about....like 1999. In 2003, Matt Greenfield the American co-founder of ADV films that own the rights to Eva, has been saying that he, and WETA and Peter Jackson have been in talks about the movie.
Sidenote: ADV are dicks and i hate their company. I will explain later.
WETA (site for the them is here: http://www.wetaworkshop.co.nz/projects/filmography/film/neon_genesis ) is currently working Halo 3 movie, and like always, they say Eva might be there next project.
So, why bring this up?
Because it was announced that, well, here: http://www.animenewsnetwork.com/news/2008-04-15/dreamworks-to-make-3d-live-action-ghost-in-the-shell
Dreamworks, and the minds behind Transformer are doing a Ghost in the Shell movie as long as Anime is somewhat popular. "Go Speed Go" if you see what i mean. I really hope that the EVA movie starts taking off again. OR ELSE!!! |
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| This journal not dead yet... |
[Apr. 13th, 2008|12:12 am] |
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| | Not now. Busy, busy. | ] |
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| | Stardust the musical. For real i swear. | ] |
it got better i swear. Why didn't anyone tell me that the XBOX 360 was so cool. And that dog piss stays on Richard for at least one hour before he notices it? due to popular demand I am going to be posting more because lately it feels more like a chore then something fun to do. I think i said that before but didn't do anything to change it. Maybe this time i will actually try. |
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| Iron Man Villains |
[Apr. 7th, 2008|07:09 pm] |
Richard brought up a good point. Who does Iron Man fight.
Here are the ones off the top of my head:
The Beetle, Black Knight, Crimson Dynamo, Fin Fag Foom (Represent yo!), Living Laser, Iron Monger (of course), Radioactive Man, and Ultron.
Most of these are Avenger rouges as well.
Why does he have such crappy arch-nemesis'es? He has been around since the 1960s and he has no "Loki" or "Green Goblin", or "Joker" villain. Has he always been so lame?
All he does in the comics is have a problem and make a iron suit for it.
Space problem = Space suit!
Hulk problem = Hulk-buster suit!
Drinking problem = Intervention suit!
I thought his 1990s TV show was cool, but even that was more like an Avenger show with any good Avengers in it.
For MY Iron Man movie I would do more of a Russian theme and put Black Widow and Crimson Dynamo in it. Maybe make it a Communist theme and put Radioactive Man in it. Gotta have War Machine too!
I hope the movie doesn't suck.....oh and there will be a Kingdom Come Movie in 2011. Hopefully... |
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| Beep, boop. |
[Mar. 27th, 2008|12:58 am] |
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| | coughing | ] |
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| | Ludo, duh. | ] |
I like how late nights are my typing time. I got a myspace, but there is no reason to look at it yet.
I been thinking of quiting my job again. Mostly because I seem so sad and depressed lately. I also "found" this band called Ludo and i love this song:
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| Please Post |
[Mar. 4th, 2008|01:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | sick like always | ] |
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| | b52's - funplex | ] |
I been starring at this blank "post an entry" page for a while. Ever since my birthday.
Really having a hard time right now.
( Read more... ) |
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| um, sure why not. |
[Jan. 21st, 2008|06:01 pm] |
"After World War II, the world was basically left in a horrible state."
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Dumbest statement....EVER!
If anything, after WW2 the world was united in a state of pro-democratic ideas and the United States and the Western world appeared as heroes. Unless you love Nazi and fascism, which i hope ya don't, you would understand that.
On one side, yes, the infrastructure on the world was a horrible state, but not in the USofA. IT WAS ONE OF THE PLACES THE WAR WAS NOT FOUGHT IN.
ok?
ok. |
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| Good News |
[Jan. 16th, 2008|01:15 pm] |
I was locked outside the house for about an hour. My hands are blistered for trying to get the door open. But at least i am inside now.
Fun times. |
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| Real Funny God |
[Jan. 15th, 2008|08:33 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | not ok, not ok. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Dead Milkmen - "Bitchin' Camaro" | ] |
I want to take a trip back for a second. Back to when Smash Bros. for the Wii was schedule for a December 1st 2007 release.
And i got a reserve.
The next week the date of release was postponed to February 2008.
Yes I was bummed out, but not upset.
Flash to a couple of weeks ago, and I joke with the guys at Gamestop (which is five stores down) how that now that the release date was coming up, they would postponed it again.
And the clerk looked at me and said, "No, I mean the games been finished and ready, there is no way they would postponed it again."
A couple of days ago, Smash Bros. posted this:
Which is cool, Pikmin & Olimar as playable characters. Awesome!!
Only they also posted this:
Due to delays in the completion of Super Smash Bros. Brawl, we’ve had to change the release date of the game to Sunday, March 9th.
I deeply apologize to the people who have looked forward to playing the game for so long and ask that you hold on just a little longer. Thank you for your patience.
They delayed it TILL MARCH. OK. NOW I AM A BIT UPSET!
It is just a game, right? |
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| Age and Time |
[Jan. 14th, 2008|03:22 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | cric! | ] |
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| | Zetsubou Girls - "Zessei Bijin" | ] |
Um, my birthday is only a month away. The big 25. Like the last hallmark of youth, or so. Five more years till 30. Ouch. That hurts.
Also, I been trying to get the money situation under control. I keep looking at the fact that early February I have to pay both my installment and book. Couple the fact that in January is like the slowest work week next to February. I really don't want to borrow any money and it will be a while before my taxes get done. Grr. Then I think, "Keep your mind here and now where it belongs."
To which i reply, "But Master Yoda says i should be mindful of the future."
Or something like that it has been way too long since I've seen the prequels. Jes and I have been watching the classic Star Wars lately and that was fun. But now i have to run and should get going. Tootles. |
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| Good Sunday Morning |
[Jan. 6th, 2008|09:51 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | chest pains! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Voltire | ] |
Ugh, the tyranny of work and school have slowed down enough for me to post things. Actually I just ended my shift at 9am so whatever. I don’t go back in till 10pm tomorrow. *scratch, scratch*
Well, the holidays were cool. Jess got me these things: An Xbox 360, Halo 3, and Rock Band. Not to mention, Mario Galaxy, and an awesome guitar strap.
I can see why Halo is so addicting. I kinda wanna play it right now. Now Jess is up I am sure she will want me to do things soon.
Ok. Back to writing.
Funny thing happened. I apparently am signed up for some rewards program with my back/credit card. I got charged $30 for it and I went to investigate and turned out I had some account with a bunch of points on it. So I turned it into about $140 worth of gift cards to best buy. I am just now using them and shouldn’t need to buy anything with real money for a while.
I also got a bunch of Vacation time set up and I will be getting 90 more hours in Feb. Woo7.
I hate 2007 just so everyone knows. I hated it. I know there isn’t any real difference from 2007 and 2008, but I just didn’t like it that much. Well, I need to get going. |
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| Kill All Humans. |
[Dec. 13th, 2007|10:54 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | cold | ] |
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| | "Puzzle"-round table and nino | ] |
It been a couple of crazy months. My chest keeps hurting and I am always tried, but ‘tis the season, as they say.
While driving, I think to myself, “Self, that would make a great LJ entry.”
Later on, I forget it and move on.
But today will be different.
I finally have cable internet, so I can load and watch all the videos on the internet.
It has also made me into a d/l monster. I d/led so much anime in just a couple of weeks. It is sad. I wish I had artistic talents so I could just make something and give that as a present to people. I suck.
Jess is moved in here, but I know she not too happy about it. Hopefully we won’t be here too long. I got most of my X-mas shopping done. I think……or hope.
I found some ways to lower my stress at work. Make fun of stupid people.
For example: Someone ask, “Where are your Transformer toys?”
If I am out, I look at them and say, “um, Transformers. What are those?”
Mind you, I am wearing a Autobot pin on my lapel.
Another good one is the famous, “Do you have any Wiis?”
To which I go, “Yeah, I have tons of them, in the back, next to my store manger Bigfoot and the unicorns I captured this morning.”
Things like that make me happy.
I hate the holidays. I really do. Really dumb, fanatic people shop this time of year.
But I hate work. School as well. Done with all of it.
I am really looking forward to a day off. Just one between the school and work, just an honest to goodness day of no work.
Also Ike Turner died Wednesday. I don’t know if that is sad or not.
Soooo much to download, so little time. |
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